Thursday, December 11, 2014


After so long that I couldn't almost remember, what affection feels like. I still wonder what kind of bond I share with people around me, with me being reserved most of the time, I perhaps unconsciously treat them as acquaintance only.

That indeed, it's difficult for me to speak of love and affection when the bonds I'm sharing with various people are mere ragged knot which is about to break.

Bond, as such, becomes quite complicated as time passes by. People change, you change. And you can't expect people to be the same when they've gone through living during all that period of time you are missing and not by their side. 

Many words to be said. Meanings to be shared. But sadly, at the moment, none of these happens.

When familiar becomes unfamiliar.

When bond breaks.

When love is unknown and affection loses its grace and dignify sense that connects between two souls.

There's no eye, ear and shoulder to turn to,
There's no home to return to,

How to feel needed again?

Monday, November 17, 2014

Running Against Time

I've been counting days and months and becoming aware of how little time I have actually till the day I supposedly to finish this seemingly long years of undergraduate studies.

Noted that I mentioned 'supposedly'.

I'm actually scared, no, 'scared' doesn't word it right. I'm horrified, terrified beyond measure.

IDP (Integrated Design Project) is totally a burden.

FYP (Final Year Project, Thesis), well is not like it doesn't progress at all, I couldn't get much help like everyone else, thus my work has stopped for a while. Getting an info for new things on market is not that easy too.

And how could people expect me to learn new software (by myself !) in two weeks time?

Excuse me, I don't think I've that much energy to express my dissatisfaction.

Excuse me.

Friday, October 31, 2014

5 cm

5 cm. An indonesian film. Go watch now ! Available on youtube.

Notable indonesian film:

  • Laskar Pelangi
  • Alangkah Lucunya Negeri Ini
  • Ketika Cinta Bertasbih
  • Ayat Ayat Cinta
  • 99 Cahaya di Langit Eropa
  • Tenggelamnya Kapal Van Der Wijck
  • 9 Summers 10 Autumns
  • Negeri 5 Menara
  • Hafalan Shalat Delisa

Tuesday, October 28, 2014


Teringat akan kata-kata Imam Hassan al-Banna,

"Mengapa bergaduh akan perkara yang sunat, sedangkan kesatuan itu wajib?"

Sempit sungguh akal sesetengah manusia.

Dalam kekalutan yang menutupi jalan perpaduan,

Pekerti, sayang, pekerti.

Adab budi yang menjadi legasi, kebanggaan bangsa dan generasi moyang kamu itu yang membezakan darjat.

Pekerti itu yang membuka jalan, membina jambatan, menerangi kegelapan kearah sesuatu yang lebih baik.

"The world is change by your example, not your opinion" - Paulo Coelho

P/s: I've been on tumblr for all these times, so whenever I try to write long post, I just couldn't. So, I start by writing short posts more often till I get the hang of it. Also, been trying to improve my grammar and vocab as well. I've been trying to find time to read all books in my shelf before going to buy plenty more during Big Bad Wolf this coming December.

Final semester. Bismillah.


We seek to be understood, yet we never really made an effort to try to understand things which revolve around us.

Let alone, the heart of people.

In search for a companion,
to guide us,
to help us,
to follow us,
to walk alongside,
and to share,
good and bad,

We forget;

The heart of the people, is like a book,
We open it, but never read

Friday, October 24, 2014

Hati Kecil

Seketika cuma, ku tertanya,
Mengapa hati kecil ini,
Penuh bisa;

Namun, ia juga,
Penuh rasa?

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