It's Saturday and I've nothing to do. I've no more class on Monday, so I decide to start studying tomorrow and I'm taking a day off from books and notes today. Plus, I'm scared of Fluid Mechanics. Peculiar, I can't get my hand on this subject.
I skipped a few classes, but I did study. Still, the thought of failing this subject or rather, flunking the final exam crosses my mind. What's odd, I do quite well on the other subjects, not the top of my class, just above average. But not Fluid Mechanics. Well, there are two things I can do for now. Get the thought out of my head and put as much effort as I can. Berusaha !
I just watched Battleship. It was quite a good movie. But since the movie was made based on the Hasbro Battleship Game, don't expect too much of the story line. I can give credit to the bombing action. The movie was about 2 hours long, and all I saw was explosion for an hour and a half.
Graduating seniors are done with their final exam. And they are talking about marriage, lol. I remember our talk about marriage, relationships and so on while eating pizza. Actually, we were more to discuss about Bob and Siddiq's love life, haha. To think I'm ready, nuh, not in 3 years time. I might follow their advice. Finishing up my degree first, or getting engaged during my final year like Zul. Maybe some other time, if I have the mood to talk about love and relationship stuffs.
I need a cat. Badly.
Oh, it's about time for flowers to bloom. Tulips and cherry blossoms.
It's been a while since I posted a poetry on this blog. There was one day, I'd been thinking, I might have lost interest in pursuing my goal though it's still early in the year to give up something I've set my mind on to. I think I'm a lost cause. Then, by accident I found this poem. Actually, what Elizabeth described when she wrote this poem caught my attention.
I sat for a moment. Life has been great, why bother complicating small things in the first place? I rolled up in my comfy blanket and slept. Because people say, when you've got unnecessary things on your mind, sleep for a while and pretend it's all a dream. Works for me, at least.
I love roses. The problem is, they have thorns. One day I was
thinking of how a rose's thorns can hurt, but a rose is still a beautiful
flower, and I also thought of how life can hurt but also is still great.
People don't hesitate to pick a rose despite the
fact that the thorns can prick them, just as they should not be afraid to take
risks because they might be hurt - Elizabeth
One, I can't avoid doing careless mistakes especially during a test or exam. I have a habit of not checking my answer properly before submitting the exam paper and then, got frustrated over silly mistakes I committed when I go through the questions again.
Two, I'm sick.
And three, the picture below doesn't have any relation to this post.
One bridge at a time. I feel great when I cross out a task from my things-to-do list. Next week, I'll be done with works, and what's left is to stay focus for the upcoming final exam. I think I need to reward myself. I need an ice-cream, and a good song to enjoy. This is a good song.
One of the things that is confusing with the political leaders, political parties and even political landscape of Malaysia is they always talk about how the young generations hold the responsibilities to develop Malaysia as a great nation and we will somehow take over the government as future leaders, but even in a college/ university level, we are not able to participate in politics, and now they expect us to vote without knowing the reality of what happen in the political world?
They expect us to study, get our diploma, and after we're able to stand firm with stable jobs and build a family, then we can involve in politics. That's why the young people couldn't care less about the country. At some point, most people already sicked with the scenes they read in newspaper with bias, blaming and so on.
I can't vote legally yet, but doesn't that mean I can't acquire or participate or even knowing how the politics of this country works?
If philosophy described life as a sailing boat and we were the sailor, pretty much I assured you my boat is tilted back and forth, right and left now.
My boat is drilled and filled with holes but luckily I managed to patch them all one by one just to keep it steady on the vast blue horizon. The notion of keeping the boat in good condition demands the acquisition of constant motivation which I only could maintain them for a split second. And the unwelcoming notorious weather triggers it more.
Be it raging storm, tidal wave or heavy rain, after multiple counters, the sail is torn down with my anchor tied to the land, and I just need to figure out where I want to go with the aid of a broken compass.
Where can I go?
I can't hold any longer the burden of desire that already linked to this concealed soul, but I feel obliged to let it sink deep down to the bottom of the sea. Let it be a treasure to the luckiest man, or a tied 'kraken' to the greed of man, or maybe let it resides in a whale's stomach, so that no one can ever find it.
The weight of doing unnecessary things is the only reason I can identify as the root of this perpetuating hallucination as it outweighs the buoyant force of my determination. I've so many unimportant things on the boat that'll only make it heavier, sinking bit by bit if I continue like this.
I was drowned before, but do I expect to be drowned again?
Worse, am I willing to let my boat sink and become another part of unwritten history?
And worst, is my life worth to be wasted in any of these?
Allah is the protector for those who have faith; from the depth of darkness He will lead them out into the light