Random And Radical Boredom #17

Hai hai.

Actually, aku tak tahu nak update apa dekat blog ni. Ni lah masalah bila ada blog, takde idea nak tulis apa. Aku nak tulis dalam bahasa melayu hari ni sebab malas nak perah otak tulis dalam B.I. Nak fikir ayat, nak fikir perkataan sesuai, nak check grammar lagi. Tukar angin sikit.

So, cuti sekejap ni memang tak buat apa. Aku cuti, orang lain tak cuti. Cuti ni niat memang nak rehat jer. Nanti dah masuk belajar, mula lah merungut takde cuti. Walaupun aku selalu buat cuti umum sendiri (tak pergi kelas satu hari). Huhu. Ambil angin, jumpa member-member lama. Makan segala makanan yang aku idam sebab dekat uni kena jimat. Cuti ni habis semua aku balun.

Result semester lepas, Alhamdulillah. Wink-wink. Lepas lah dean's list. Bila dapat DL tu aku rasa biasa jer, happy lah jugak sebenarnya. Aku ada terfikir actually, bila dah dapat lah apa yang korang usaha kan, next is what? Nak continue struggle sebab korang dah dapat booster pemberi semangat or just sit back and relax sebab korang dah dapat apa yang korang hajatkan? Aku harap ia jadi moral support and motivation untuk terus berusaha. Target empat rata pulak ke. Dream big they say. It should be fun they say.

Anime Code Geass. 50 episodes. Waktu mula-mula tengok dulu, tak faham pun. Tak matang lagi sebab tengok pun cerita ni because dia ada robot and machine yang agak cool. Tapi bila tengok balik, walaupun ada unsur superstitious (intend to kill God, immortality, superpower etc), this is the best anime ever. Maksud aku message cerita tu. Malas nak cerita panjang, nanti nampak aku ni anime freak sangat walaupun aku tulis aku dah matang. Backfired, dush.

Aku rasa post-post lepas aku ada cakap nak shopping. Then, aku selongkar balik almari aku, banyak rupanya baju and seluar boleh pakai lagi. Tapi semua tu baju-baju baru and lawa and baru dua tiga kali pakai. Sayang pulak nak guna. So, cuti ni aku habiskan duit ke makanan, duit baju simpan. Terpaksa jugak lah rasmi baju-baju tu balik, apa guna beli baju tapi simpan.

Dan akhir kata, penyakit hati ni memang susah nak ubat kan?

TTL #14

Pentingkan diri atau tak pentingkan orang lain?

Song: Circle Of Life

Who doesn't like Lion King? A step further into becoming an adult, watching again all my favourite (cartoon) movies when I was young, I simply break into tears. Demmit. Maybe because at this age, I finally understood. 

It's the Circle of Life

And it moves us all

Through despair and hope

Through faith and love
Till we find our place

On the path unwinding

In the circle

Circle of Life

Through despair and hope

Through faith and love

Song: Drops of Jupiter

Vid: Gratitude

Express your gratitude !

Life: Hari Guru

I come from a family of teachers. My grandfather was a teacher, both my parent are teachers though my father's already retired. But I've come to know the life of being a teacher.

I don't whether it's true or not, but it seems that Malaysian people always choose a teaching profession as their last resort. For me, even if a person ever thought of becoming a teacher, he or she should be respected.  Becoming a teacher is an admirable job, full of responsibility and nobility. Don't ever pollute the purest intention of providing knowledge, guiding young people and motivate them to follow their dreams into something you casually do just because you don't have any other choice.

I'm happy for some of my friends who choose teaching career for their jobs. I mean willingly and with passion. Some of them, I can see a drastic change in them, becoming somewhat a different person today, as I assume, the process of becoming a teacher and how they've come to realize they actually hold a great responsibility to educate the children of this country change them into a better person. Hopefully, a good educator, insyaAllah.

I may not have become the person I am today and I may not achieve what I have today without the help of my teachers, and that also include my parent and friends. Though a teacher is a separated entity, but to those who have ever taught me anything, you are also a teacher. I thank you for every little knowledge you have given me, and my prayer is with you.

We live with the intention of learning and teaching. We are both student and teacher. Even if the matter is not enough to make a big change for the society, may it gives the slightest benefit to one's life.

And lastly,

Guru itu ibarat pelita. Mengisi diri dengan minyak tanah (ilmu), dan menerangi malam kelam dengan cahayanya walaupun malap. Andaikan minyak nya habis, diisikan lagi dan terus membakar dirinya dalam segenap kegelapan. Jangan jadi seperti lilin, membakar diri namun kecundang di akhir perjuangan.

Selamat Hari Guru

kepada guru-guru, bakal guru, pesara guru dan apa-apa lah berkaitan dengan guru.

Vid: Jumpa Lagi Sharazul

Sharazul "Zul" Fikri. Antara senior yang paling senior dekat University of Toronto disamping Arif, Mus and Safwan. Aku boleh kata perangai dia agak pelik, tapi dalam pelik-pelik dia tu, Zul ada sifat serius Arif, ada sifat sempoi Mus and sifat matang Safwan.

Lagi satu, Zul suka peluk orang. Bukan peluk yang ehem-ehem tu, tapi pelukan seorang abang.

All the best in your future endeavor, insyaAllah. May Allah bless you for your kindness, and for all the things you've have done, usrah moment, helping us study, support us financially (belanja Tim), buat lawak yang memang kitorang takkan gelak, Blur Xbox and weekend movie moment. And marriage talk ! Rindu juga muka-muka dalam video ni.

Poetry: Our Deepest Fear

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,

gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There is nothing enlightened about shrinking

so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We are all meant to shine, as children do.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.

It is not just in some; it is in everyone.

And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give

other people permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our fear,

our presence automatically liberates others.

From the movie Coach Carter

(An excerpt from A Return To Love
by Marianne Williamson)

Vid: Orang Melayu Yang Broken English

Haha. Sila jangan gelak macam orang hilang akal. This is just an audio actually.

Song: Put Your Records On

By Corinne Bailey Rae feat IU. This live version is refreshing. But I like Suzy's acoustic cover more.



The lyric is nice and warm. Tapi bila Suzy yang nyanyi, laki pun boleh menjerit "Awww". To Suzy, shut up and take my ring :)

p/s: sorry sebab update banyak-banyak. Bila masuk jer blog ni, perangai pun dah macam perempuan sikit.

Life: Socialize

I cut off my time spending on facebook and basically, everything else on the net. Not entirely, but I believe the time I wasted in front of my laptop can be spent to do something else that is much more worthwhile and benefiting.

Meet and greet are my new socializing style.

There are reasons to that. I want to learn, to experience, and more importantly, I want to express emotionally without being restricted to what people think. I actually want to laugh sincerely. Not typing down "lol" and "haha". And to that, blogging is the only exception.

Rather than texting or chatting online, I think meeting people personally satisfies my social need and plus, I've learnt a lot. Improving my socializing skills but not solely talking, I mean everybody can do that. Meeting people to share emotions and feelings, trading knowledge, discussing about random things and things in the past, somehow spark me with interests, curiosity and inspiration to reflect upon myself, and to my writing.

That's why blogging is an exception (I need to write something to fill a hole inside my heart and to waste my free time which I enjoy wasting).

It's just like during high school. I grew up in a boarding school for five years. I met a bunch of strangers I never knew in my life, but after spending time together, we tied a bond to each other. It's true, we haven't matured enough, but the time we spent on socializing ( talk, play, study, etc ) has contributed in many aspects of my life as I enter a different world.

The methods maybe different as we believe, but I think the principles are the same. Why not meet and greet?

I can have so much fun over a cup of coffee with a friend. Whenever I play badminton (double), we'll always encourage each other and not minding over mistakes the other person makes, but at the same time we aim to win even when we play for fun. There is a beauty in that kind of social attitude.

On a different paradigm, people live a different life. Each person has their own stories. Some maybe a good or a happy one, but life is like a coin, having two sides. There are so much stories to share. Whether it's knowledgeable / interesting or not, at least you know deeper about a person or a friend. Building a bond and protect it.

One thing that's always makes me smile is a random talk with a random stranger. I've met a pensioner (soldier) who told stories about his life in the army, an old couple who shared about their love stories, and I chatted with a "makcik" who shared her food with me on the bus on my way home. Even when I refused, she insisted I took a bite.

At the same time, we still need facebook, skype and so on. I'm glad I can still talk and gossip with friends from all over the world. Often, I feel guilty for not keeping in touch with some of my old friends ( because of distance and busyness, okay that busyness is just an excuse ). But I'll try to be more accountable to them.

But the funny thing is (though not related but who cares), spending less time on the internet develops a habit in me. A study habit. I'm a lazy person, I admit. I only study the day before the exam. But since there is nothing to do as I restricted myself from surfing the net, I've no choice but to open a book.

Thankfully, it helps somehow. I feel weird if I didn't open a book in a day. But that lazy attitude is still there. So I thought to myself, an hour is more than enough. And it really made a difference. I no longer need to rush things, whether it's about works or daily life routine.

Back to my point, why not meet and greet?

Meet people if you've the chance to meet them, and greet people occasionally whom are dear to you especially when distance separates you apart. Go out and play and meet new friends. As always, learn.

I'm hungry. Panjang lak ai post ni.

p/s: al-fatihah kepada emak Mustakim (Mustak) yang baru saja kembali ke rahmatullah. Amin~

Random And Radical Boredom #16

Happy Birthday Abah ! Maybe I should make a special post for him but he would never read it. Abah saya ni buta IT sikit. Buat facebook pun ada 5 orang je friends. But anyway, may Allah bless you abah. Nak buat post tacing-tacing rasa macam tak payah jer.

My brother is going to Cambodia for 7 months for work. He'll be going there next week. Wohoa, kena raya negara orang nanti. Tak confirm lagi sebenarnya dia dapat balik raya ke tak, tapi kena prepare lah tak balik raya. Lepas pergi Cambodia, maybe kena posting Vietnam pulak for a year. Alamat nya, memang lambat kahwin lah. Tapi gaji banyak. Huu...

I don't have any plan yet for holiday. Maybe to the beach. Or stay home and sleep. And shopping. Lots of my shirts are shrinking, my socks already have holes in them, I need a new belt, I'm no longer fit in some of my jeans. Pretty much I'll be spending a fair amount of money this holiday. Oh, FCUK jean looks tempting. 

I also need a new watch. I lost my Swatch about 2 or 3 months ago. I have another watch. Tapi jam besi. Tak best nak pakai and just not suit my style. So another Swatch it is. 

I need a girlfriend? Haha.

Bye.

p/s: mahu sengket kalau shopping sakan ni.