Life: Catching Up

Since Ramadhan started, there were quite a number of unexpected events occurred. To put it simply, one by one thing has settled by itself. Though some were not like I'd expected, nevertheless they were resolved in the most appropriate way.

Before that, I think I spent more time on tumblr. Maybe due to busyness of this Ramadhan, I feel like I'm losing my sense of writing a long post and the feeling was not exhilarating like before.

So, first, hear me whining about my workloads. This semester seems short. Maybe because of Ramadhan, we have to restrict our activities such as "Jalan-Jalan Cari Makan" and hanging out at the mall, watching movies, or any typical activity a student would do.

Besides, we have more than enough works to do. We have a free Friday every week. But since things were kinda mixed up, Friday is allocated either for additional class or test. And during this time, a lot of assignments were given to us, to only finish up each one of them the next week if they were handed out this week. With test every week and no holiday except for weekend, not even a mid semester break, I feel like throwing up every monday morning. But as such, I still do everything. Whining doesn't get me anywhere but just saying, you need to release some of the stress out right? By whining on blog.

And this Ramadhan, I'm helping an organization called Unicommserve ( I don't really know what does the name stands for ). Our tasks is to collect money this Ramadhan and donate it in form of food supplies to those in need. So after class is finished we would open a booth, or 'tawaf' around the university to meet our objective. And the donation will be conducted in two weeks time.

Last Saturday, I managed to spend some time meeting a few old friends and breaking fast together with them at Chili's. The food and the people were awesome. Yeah, exchanging stories about each other, recalled how much we've changed compared to the time when we're in high school. Catching up with each other over great food and drinks. Two of them, Faidhi and Fairul are medical students. Since I've suffered from quite a severe cough for two weeks, Fairul was examining me since he's doing his clinical year. He said maybe I've pneumonia. Well, about time to figure that out. I tried cough syrup but nothing happened so I suspect maybe it's not a normal cough and I'm too lazy to go to the clinic / hospital. Thanks to Fairul, now I'm consuming some antibiotics, so worry not. Can't wait to get better.

You know, I think this Ramadhan is better than the previous one. Things are a bit hectic, with stuffs and all. But this Ramadhan has shown me, everything will eventually fall to places if you do things the right way. And I'm relieved. There are less things to worry about.

And, final exam is after raya.

That's just suck and spoils all the fun.

Random: ADHD

Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder

Predominantly inattentive type symptoms may include

• Be easily distracted, miss details, forget things, and frequently switch from one activity to another
• Have difficulty maintaining focus on one task
• Become bored with a task after only a few minutes, unless doing something enjoyable
• Have difficulty focusing attention on organizing and completing a task or learning something new or trouble completing or turning in homework assignments, often losing things (e.g., pencils, toys, assignments) needed to complete tasks or activities
• Not seem to listen when spoken to
• Daydream, become easily confused, and move slowly
• Have difficulty processing information as quickly and accurately as others
• Struggle to follow instructions. 

Predominantly hyperactive-impulsive type symptoms may include

• Fidget and squirm in their seats
• Talk nonstop
• Dash around, touching or playing with anything and everything in sight
• Have trouble sitting still during dinner, school, and story time
• Be constantly in motion
• Have difficulty doing quiet tasks or activities. 

and also these manifestations primarily of impulsivity

• Be very impatient
• Blurt out inappropriate comments, show their emotions without restraint, and act without regard for consequences
• Have difficulty waiting for things they want or waiting their turns in games

I definitely have ADHD

Vid: Save Maryam

Random And Radical Boredom #21

Salam.

Just nak bagitahu, saya sudah berpindah ke Tumblr. Blog ni takkan terabai, cuma kadang-kadang nak post something dekat blog ni kena banyak fikir.

So, buat masa ni akan alternately guna blogger and tumblr. Guna je dua-dua, cuma yang pasti aku takkan buat twitter. Facebook pun dah tak berapa.

Fyi, tumblr sangat convenient untuk post-post yang simple, quote, photos and kalau malas, boleh reblog. Baru buat actually. So jangan lah expect tumblr aku tu best sangat. Just untuk suka-suka, isi masa lapang.

Let the pictures tell the stories.

izharkasim.tumblr.com

Aku tak suka serabut-serabut, so tumblr pun lebih kurang macam blog.

Putih, simple and endless scroll.

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"O you who have believed, decreed upon you is fasting as it was decreed upon those before you that you may become righteous."

[Al-Baqarah, 2: 183]

10 more days till Ramadhan.

May Allah bless us with a meaningful Ramadhan. May we boost our imaan during this upcoming holy month, and may our past and future sins are forgiven.

The clock is ticking. The search for Lailatul Qadar

Life: Planning Ahead

After two more semesters ( including this one ), I'm planning to take a break. Since there will be a long holiday ( about 5 months long ), I'm thinking of getting a job, doing intern to be specific.

Currently, I'm listing down a bunch of companies that offer internship program for civil engineering student. AECOM, Shell, and Petronas, just to name a few. A few companies offer program at overseas such as US and Australia, while big names in Malaysia certainly provide valuable hands on experience related to the field.

Well, getting some experience is a very important added value after I graduated. It's hard to get a decent job nowadays. Taking some advices from my lecturers and seniors, planning ahead is the key. Though this is just a start, I think I need to take everything seriously from now on.

I just started doing this a week ago. I don't expect good news, but I hope my effort ( from this semester and the next one ) will pay off during January 2013.

Mudah-mudahan dapat kerja best.

Semoga perjalanan hidup ini dipermudahkan. Bukan untuk aku jer, untuk anda semua juga.

Amin.

Song: When You Say Nothing At All

Semalam, exhausted. But overall, it was a good journey. Cuma menguji kesabaran dan juga tahap ke"malu"an betul. From Kuala Lumpur to Kuala Lipis and back to Kuala Lumpur again. Tayar pancit and selipar putus masa tengah tukar tayar. Dugaan.

And what's surprising, Calok (Firdaus) get married yesterday. Kahwin senyap-senyap je tak bagitahu mamat ni. Anyway, selamat pengantin baru kepada Calok and wife, Farhah Ambiyah. Moga bahagia dunia akhirat. Umur baru 21 dah kahwin. Respect.

p/s: Is it normal to fall in love twice with the same person? Bye.

Life: The Edge

Life is like lot living on the edge

Why? Because every day, every hour, every minute, every second and every moment we have to make decision.

It's like we're always on the edge.

To stay or to jump?

To do or not to do?

To say or not to say?

Every time we have to decide, we'll always try to analyze the consequences. 

To jump. We may have to let go what we have. We'll have to face risks, and we do not know what awaits us down there. What will happen to us then?

To stay. We may miss out something that could change our entire life. We may stay in the same circle, unchange. While the world is constantly changing, we may question our purposes living on the edge and why we chose not to jump.

In before, there's no body knows what will happen whether we choose to jump or to stay. No one knows the exact consequences. How we wish life were just a line, a one way path and would untangled itself whenever we were force to make difficult choices.

Guiding us step by step, with obvious written signs to direct us in making decisions instead of us guessing a correct answer and imagining where we would end up at.

One small mistake, our lives might turn out less perfect than it could have been. And so, we become afraid.

Frankly, often times, I choose to jump. 

People usually choose to be in the safe zone,

But then, where's the fun in life?


p/s: my phone is broken T..T

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Is my blue the same as your blue?

Difference is always there. We merely come to a consensus about something. As for blue, some may refer to the sky and some maybe think of the sea.

Revealing true self that is different from others is regarded as a taboo. Though, in general, a blue is still a blue. So, why, take an instance, a light blue or perhaps a dark blue is considered being another colour that is not belong to the blue family?

People have mind and heart. Thought and emotion. If judgement and reason are all the same, then define what is sane.

So, is my blue the same as your blue?

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Sweet.

Looking at a 3 years old arabic girl with blue eyes with her two brothers, probably two or three years older than her. They both looked at me with their earnest not-knowing hazel eyes.

It was a normal counter with people living in the same building, waiting for the lift to come. She hid behind her father, sneakily gazing at me. I just put up a smile.

In the lift, only their chatter and small giggles broke the silence. How cute I thought to myself. As I wandered my mind away waiting for the lift to reach the 17th floor, there was a small chatter between the oldest brother, I'm guessing by his height, with the father.

I didn't understand it at all, since they talked in Arabic. Just like how we used to talk in Malay in front of foreigners.

Suddenly, the boy said "Takbir".

And his father responded, "Allahuakbar".

The boy repeated it again, "Takbir".

And likewise, his father said "Allahuakbar".

This moment was repeated for about 5 times, until the lift stopped at the 13th floor, where they all went out.

It instilled in me, a thought and also adore, at such a young age, a boy has gained the knowledge and is exposed to such thinking of how he might see (perception), and understand the concept of God and religion. What is more surprising, the children also followed their father's lead, responded to the Almighty call.

I stood in silence, getting mixed feelings, shocked and amazed.

So, I ever wonder, how am I going to raise my kids?