Life: Hello 2012, Goodbye 2011

This is the last post for this month, and of course this year too, 2011.

2011, conclusively, has been a tough year, the worst at the time being in my 20 years of living. Well, there have been several occasions of laughter and joyfulness, but life has its up and down, and the downfall, probably has the greatest impact in my life.

At first, I was confused because this was the first time I was infatuated with the current condition where everything I did went all wrong. Who knew that a boy ended up crying at that time, unexpectedly. I searched for light in vain, every night it became a nightmare, but one thing I learnt, a crucial knowledge, is never to lose hope.

I kept praying, at the same still struggling to fight the doubts and worries that resided in my heart, I lost. I tried to regain strength, I did but the battle was already over. And what's left, was to decide on my next path. So I did. Honestly, I wish to keep all my memories of 2011 in a Pandora's Box where only time has the key to open it.

But that's just pathetic. Compared to others, this is nothing I guess. Everyone has their own fights, everyone feels the same occasionally, and this time, unfortunately, I was chosen. It's better to be this early, I need to learn the lesson anyway. God has His own plan, and for sure, I'll gain benefits out of it sometime in the future.

So, I'm in a place I've never had in mind before. But that feeling still doesn't fade away. The feeling where I feel I don't belong to this place, but at the same time, I'm enjoying myself, showing my smile to the world to tell them I'm fine just the way it is. This place perhaps will be just another terminal for me, or maybe a destination. For how long, I don't know.

Thanks for all the failures, rejections, pains, scars and defeats. I'll make use of the lessons somehow :)

There are more to these, and I tell true story. But only a part of it. People, often drive by curiosity, but not a helping hand. And that's why I chose to be silent. Silence is not the best solution, until I found a way, I'll keep it this way. And I'm sorry for all the mistakes and sins. For I'm also a normal human being.

I already have the end in mind. God willing, I'll be packing my stuffs once again, to leave for another terminal and set foot on a new journey. I'm trying to learn to see things differently, judging things based on a new perspective, and perhaps this is the time to improvise, fixing things that needed to be fixed, before setting sail again.

And if that came true, maybe I'll see the world clearer than once I did.

Cheers to a year of friendship, learning, love and living. And what's great to be born on the last day of the year, you're able to reflects on many things in the past and a new resolution for next year.

Probably too early, but

Happy New Year 2012

Life: 20 and Counting

A letter to thyself

Dear future Izhar,

Life is never easy. It's confusing, challenging and part of the way, there is a series of insecurity, pain, and sometimes jovial. On your journey, you'll encounter many things. But before you can continue your steps, always remember your sole purpose of your existence.

Tidak aku ciptakan jin dan manusia melainkan hanya untuk beribadah kepada-Ku 

[Adz-Dzariyat, 51: 56]

Put God on top of anything for once you have Allah by your side, you don't need anything else. Your deen is your priority. In search of thyself, is to know your Creator. And in search of barakah, is to follow His guidance. Years ahead, you'll be walking alone and for that reason, you need a stronger heart. As you need to eat to fill your stomach and to gain energy, the food for soul are patience and gratefulness.

A wise and pious man always gets benefits whether in time of good or bad. He who endures problems with patience and cherishes comfort with gratefulness.

Many more years to come, you'll be walking on the path you chose. Never regret once you made a choice but also, be cautious every time you have to decide. Don't make decision when you're angry. Once it's decided, put your best into everything you do and let God do the rest. Never give up. Hope doesn't last without prayers, and prayers are meaningless without efforts.

Don't hold your tears. A man's tear is as powerful as a woman's. To cry doesn't mean you're weak. It's to let you know your potential. Cry when you need to cry, and laugh when you need to laugh. You'll also meet many people that come and go in you life. Never judge unless you've been in their shoes and experience the same thing.

Everyone is struggling to fight their own battle. So have heart - Nadia Ashari

Among those you meet, be sure to know who is friend and who is foe. Take care of your good friends as they are jewels in life. Nowadays, it's hard to find a friend that's always there for you especially in time of need. Cheer your friendships and repay their kindness. Remember the time they all came sitting next to you when you were sick? They didn't utter a word, just sat there and read comics but they were there when you need them.

Be careful of your foes, but always forgive them. A strong man is not someone who can lift 100 kg of stone, but the one who can control himself when in anger and the one that is forgiving.

Who spend (in the cause of Allah) during ease and hardship and who restrain anger and who pardon the people - and Allah loves the doers of good;

[Al-Imran, 3: 134]

Family. Be a good man that loves his family the most. Treat your father and mother the way they treated you. Take care of their welfare when they grow old. Express your gratitude to them, ask for their forgiveness, pray for their prosperity in this world and the Hereafter. Make them feel your love and always make them proud. Make dua for them everyday in your prayer. That's the best thing you can do.

And We have enjoined upon man (care) for his parents....

[Al-Luqman, 31: 14]

The same goes to your siblings. I know you guys fight a lot but that's just how siblings express their love to each other. Remember all the happy faces when all of us gather during holidays, during Raya, and the precious moment you've shared together. No one understand you best like your own family.

Don't live in the past. Learn from them. There are many lessons for you take from every single thing that happened in your life. Keep you head held high. Be confident but don't lose that crazy attitude of yours. Every group needs a clumsy guy that can crack a joke and makes them laugh sometimes.

Be calm in whatever situations. Don't be a lazy bump and a sleepy head. I mean, reduce it to a minimum level. Procrastinate when you feel like doing so. Sometimes, you need to take a break from everything but not too often. Or else, it'll become cancer :)

Love equally. Love is subjective and tougher than calculus. You've been there and you know you're not ready. But when you are, I'm sure you'll meet someone special like no other. And she just suits you best. Everything will be worth the wait, and in the meantime, never lose hope and keep praying. Be honest to her, be loyal to her. Because in the next phase of your life, she'll be the one that provides support to you, lend her ears to your stories, share your heart and love, and a hug from her will make every sickness and worry disappear.

Bila lafaz cinta itu halal, memang lain rasanya - Aiman Azlan

Keep dreaming. You know what you want to achieve. You've been in the bathroom for more than 30 minutes thinking what to do next year. Dream is not something to be laughed at. Now you know your goals, pursue them with courage. Like every pain makes muscle grows stronger, fear makes you braver. Don't afraid of trying and falling down. Be motivated. If everyone else can do it, why not you?

Be yourself. Be Khairul Izhar. Live to that name, and make your life awesome.

Happy 20th Birthday

Another year older, another year wiser.

And when you turn 21, write another letter to Mr. 22. Keep the tradition going because

People often say that motivation doesn't last. Neither does bathing. That's why we recommended it daily 

-Zig Ziglar-

Err, in our case, it's yearly :)

Sincerely,

Present Izhar, or should I say Past Izhar?

Wordless Wednesday #12

Pressure makes you valuable. Haha.

TTL #5

If I had the chance to undo what's done, I wouldn't. Unleashing the evil of the world, Pandora regretted and deeply saddened, but at the bottom of Pandora's Box, she found Hope.

Life: Story of Two Wolves

An elderly Cherokee Native American was teaching his grandchildren about life. He said to them 

"A fight is going on inside me, it is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One wolves is evil - he is fear, anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, competition, superiority, and ego.

The other is good - he is joy, peace, love, hope, sharing, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, friendship, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. The sane fight is going on inside you, and inside every person too."

They thought about it for a minute, and then one child asked his grandfather,

"Which wolf will win, grandpa?"

The elder simply replied,

"The one you feed."

Song: Can't Take My Eyes Off You

Well, this one is by Lady Antebellum. Not by Frankie Valli and The 4 Seasons. A slow song that can put you into deep sleep.

So lay here beside me, just hold me and don't let go

But I didn't, I didn't

Vid: Meme Proposal

Aish, kenapa lah zaman sekarang orang proposed semua nak stylo milo jer. Nah amik lagi satu marriage proposal video. Kali ni 9gag style. Ada kiss scene *winkwink*.

Bila orang proposed style-style, rasa nak buat jugak. Okay, too early. Still have time, and first thing first, enjoy my life as an engineering student (suffer).

Proposed like a boss

p/s: awek cun lelaki macam nerd. jealous.

Poetry: Ten Thousand Leaves

The crimson sunset

sets these forbidden fields aglow

wave not, for the guards may find us

Princess Nukata; Japanese poetry

The human heart never changes, circumstance does

p/s: that's why I love watching Chihayafuru. Can I name my daughter Chihaya?

Wordless Wednesday #11

rainbow ice-cream :)

p/s: ingat nak sambung Turn Back The Pendulum, tapi takde pulak kejadian or situasi yang mengingatkan aku kepada perkara best untuk entri kelima TBTP. Writer's block. Any idea?

Random And Radical Boredom #7

On a side note;

menarilah dan terus tertawa

walau dunia tak seindah surga

bersyukurlah pada yang Kuasa

cinta kita di dunia

selamanya

-Laskar Pelangi-

Vid: Proposed & Engaged

Semoga berkekalan. Still a better love story than twilight. Haha

Life: Final Exam

Final starts next week on Friday.

Hypothesis, the nearer the final exam, the more time you spend on something useless.

Hypothesis accepted.

I spent my free time with going out, watching movie and sleep. Supposedly this time of the year, my enthusiasm to face the final exam boosts up but the opposite is happening. Though all assignments were done and what's left is just a couple of essays that need to be submitted next week.

The gap is long and I've only two classes left. I don't know what's wrong. Probably everything is going well according to my plan and all these make me laid back and relax.

Wahai hati, jangan kalah kepada benda lagha. I've to keep my will strong. 3 months have passed and now it's the end of semester. If I fall here after all the hard works, I'll be unfair to myself.

Final? Challenge accepted.

Some of you probably done with your papers. Happy holiday but to those who are still struggling and pull out an all nighter for the exams, good luck. Jia you !! Gambatte !! Fighting !!

Berhati-hati dengan hati :)

Random And Radical Boredom #6

It was snowing hard that day and the crazy thought came at midnight.

Running down to the courtyard and threw some snowballs at each other. We went all the way to CN Tower at 2 in the morning by foot.

Strong wind blew everything in sight. That was the first time I jumped onto a pile of snow covering the ground and make a snow angel of my own.

As I watched CN Tower glowing in different colours, we were shouting like mad men with running noses. And no s**t was given that day.

A cup of english toffee to end that crazy cold night.

And a fever later on.

Wordless Wednesday #10

Familiar?

TTL #4

Black, brown and white but I like mine bitter and sweet

Song: Permata Untuk Isteri

to future wife :)

ku ingin kau jadi wanita mulia

yang tahu harga budi dan hati

seorang lelaki bernama suami

Vid: Tomato

Ingat nak post hari jumaat tapi jumaat ada exam. And tak sempat nak ulas, so korang tengok lepas tu pandai-pandai sendiri lah ye.

Tomato, adorable indeed...

Wordless Wednesday #9

sudutkiri: Geology presentation was a success. Walaupun muka lecturer macam singa kebulur tak makan 3 bulan but at the end of class, she praised us.

Couldn't be happier.

Random question. Everyone talks about hikmah, but does anyone really understand it?

Life: Probably 9

Haha. No comment. Thanks Ain tolong scan gambar-gambar sekolah rendah

Correction, I was 7...

TTL #3

When things are covered in white, everything seems to become one.

The only time I seem to like winter is the moment when the snow is falling. I can't tolerate cold that well. But someday, I hope we meet again. When that time comes, I'm sure I'm ready for it.

Musim busy. Writer's block.

Inspiration, Y U NO COME ?

TTL #2

The feeling when the khatib cries while the reading the khutbah

Done for this week.

Lepas stress makan pizza. Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal ( All praises to Allah in every circumstance )

Random And Radical Boredom #5

Headache.

Been skipping class this week. Maybe I should trust my teammates. And not put the burden of all works onto my shoulder.

There is an issue. To be honest, I really hate group project. It can be fun, sometimes. But most of the time, your teammates suck. Okay, that's too harsh. Not suck, they are nice, but when it comes to work, they, hurm, what's the correct word again, okay lets rephrase it

Your teammates don't have the capability that meets your expectation and also they do not show any promising effort in contributing even just an idea.

A part of it, I blame myself. I've had a nightmare in working with others where 90% of the work I've done it myself in a project a couple of years ago. Since then, I couldn't really trust people and I've always did the job myself or if in any possible condition, I'll monitor their work.

I'm glad if I can offer help to them, but if they just keep it shut and do their own stuffs, this is madness. On several occasions, I don't really care. I did the work for my own good. It's better to finish it rather than throwing a tantrum that will affect your marks at the end of the day. Sacrifice is what really needed at times.

I got issue, they got issue. I need to work this out before things go bad. I mean, not enough time with so many things to do.

Ya Allah, tabahkan hati ku...

Wordless Wednesday #8

All I hear is raindrops, falling from the rooftop...

Poetry: A Pretty A Day

By E.E. Cummings

A pretty a day
(and every fades)
is here and away
(but born are maids
to flower an hour
in all, all)

o yes to flower
until so blithe
a doer a wooer
some limber and lithe
some very fine mower
a tall; tall

some jerry so very
(and nellie and fan)
some handsomest harry
(and sally and nan
they tremble and cower
so pale, pale)

for betty was born
to never say nay
but lucy could learn
and lily could pray
and fewer were shyer
than doll, doll

Poetry is always the best thing. If a couple years ago, I despised it, now, I like it more than I could ever imagine. But what makes poetry dear to me the most, reminding me of English 3U and 4U classes with Mr. Saxe and Mr Wise. 

Mr Saxe's class, he eats students for breakfast !! Just kidding. Well, I miss playing and sleeping in his class and then got scolded. Mr Wise, just like his last name, wise. A scary looking old hag, but witty and sincere. And thanks to him, I've got 92 marks for final exam. I was surprised myself. 

o yes to flower :)

Life: Geotechnic

Other name for it is Engineering Geology.

It's actually one of my favourite subjects in civil engineering. You'll learn about rocks, minerals, soil, weather, and things that satisfy your understanding of the word 'geology'. The first and second modules were a kill. I bet no one got more than 50% for our midterm, and if someone does, he/she is insane and a 'geo freak'. Learning about those stuffs is fun, yet challenging.

Fact, there are more than 3000 rocks and minerals on earth's surface. You'll see about 200 of them in class. Each one of them you'll have to know about 7 properties. Additionally, you have another 7 things to memorize about their traits. 50 of them are included in midterm. Yet, you don't know which 50 will be in the test. There you go, blank paper.

The 'easiest' paper where I have more than 3 sheets stuffed with nothing, my mind stopped functioning in a 3 hours exam, and the look of my classmates don't give a damn when I'm trying to cheat.

Nasib baik, module 1 and 2 tak payah belajar dah. Tunggu final jela nak jumpa balik benda-benda tu.

Folding bed

Next module is Geological and Geotechnical Mapping.

Like any other subject, you'll have the theory and practical parts. Theory is easy, well not that easy but at least you can read those things in notes, books, wikipedia and other sources you can have access to.

But practical, put swear words here.

The first thing we have to do is to change a map into a graph. In class, you'll be given a map, and you have 6 types of them. From the map, you have to draw 3 graphs, in order respectively. 12 steps for each graph, a total of 36 steps you have to keep in mind. And what is frustrating, it'll be one of your final questions.

In the middle of completing an assignment, 3 maps in total, and I've yet completed one.

Ah, aku nak tidur !!!

Salam Maal Hijrah 1433

Wordless Wednesday #7

It is ironic to put a picture with words though the post title emphasizes on the word 'wordless'? And at the end of post you still write something...

sudutkiri: 5 lab reports, 3 geotechnical mapping graphs, 1 whole chapter of calculus, and many more has yet to come. 

Told you November is a busy month. And one more thing, I posted this on Thursday instead of Wednesday. I totally forgot the day and the date since I've totally lots of things in hands.

I wish I can duplicate myself like Naruto did. Kage Bunshin no Jutsu !!

Random And Radical Boredom #4

Congrate Malaysia !! Malaysia dapat emas untuk bola sepak Sukan Sea. Menang penalti 4-3 setelah seri 1-1 dalam perlawanan yang beraksi selama 2 jam 15 minit.

It was a good game. Just good. And penalti last oleh kapten Malaysia, Baddrol Bakhtiar memang dramatik. Dah la kapten, last shoot penalty, bola terkena penjaga gol Indonesia, and tergolek masuk gol. Memang bersorak habis lah.

But it saddens me to read people's statuses on facebook. Indeed, some of the Indonesians did a really bad and unmoral things. Pee on Malaysian flag, ganyang Malaysia sana sini, and tak hormat our national anthem. But swearing on facebook and downgrade them with the term 'orang gaji' make us no less ignorant than them.

Kutuk kritik perlu ada had. Kalau boleh, biar lah membina. Walaupun ada sesetengah perangai macam hantu, but at least their football players still have pride. Player import atau tak itu dorang punya hal, janji kita still ada jati diri rakyat Malaysia.

So, please, stop being stupidly idiotic ignorant. Yes, we won. Just celebrate the fact, but don't look down upon others. Till then sekali lagi

Malaysia Menang !! Tahniah Harimau Malaya !!

Berdiri tegak, tangan kanan ke dada ( Negaraku dinyanyikan )

Song: For The First Time

The Script

Oh these times are hard, yeah they're making us crazy, but don't give up on me baby

TTL #1

I did some weird things lately. I brushed my teeth in my balcony. But I'm all good :)

Info: 604Republic

Hai hai...

So lagi satu segmen baru untuk blog ni, segmen info. InsyaAllah, info-info best aku akan perkenalkan dekat blog ni. Info-info maybe tentang fashion, tips memasak, web-web senggama minda dan juga apa-apa jua kandungan yang boleh dikategorikan sebagai info.

So, readers sekalian, first post info adalah tentang satu website cool bean. Sebuah website online yang menjual t-shirt and hoodie. Serius, design t-shirt and hoodie dorang semua macam best and cool-cool belaka. Quality and size juga senang didapati.

And yang paling best, korang boleh dapat t-shirt yang cool ni dalam price range 5 - 20 $ ( RM 15 - RM 60 ) sahaja. Quality check terbaik sebab aku juga pernah sebat satu t-shirt dari 604Republic. And yang paling terbaru, dorang tengah adakan poll untuk korang vote mana-mana design t-shirt yang macam best untuk dorang jual and korang sendiri boleh submit design sendiri kalau korang tak berkenan or ada design yang gempak.

Pembayaran online using credit card or paypal. Cuma yang tak best tentang 604Republic ni ialah shipping cost. Shipping cost dorang terlalu mahal. Korang at least kena tambah 15 $ ( RM 45 ) untuk shipping. Jadi kepada yang berduit lebih boleh lah angkut pukal t-shirt dari 604Republic. Angkut pukal lagi jimat sebab shipping cost yang cekik darah. Jangan risau sebab Malaysia tak lah ceruk sangat, so Malaysia termasuk dalam list perkhidmatan shipping dorang.

For more info, check out their website and also check out some of their cool bean designs

604Republic.com

Zombot

Procrastinate

Epic Duel

Blue Horde

Oh lupa, aku rasa mostly design sesuai untuk lelaki walaupun ada dorang menawarkan women size t-shirt and hoodie...

Ah, wochenende :)

Vid: Rokok Dan Kopiah

This is a must watch, for those who haven't seen this, you should.



This is a great masterpiece produced by Matluthfi. An honest and sincere vid.

It has a deeper meaning, knotted through every word, every scene and every action in the video. Some of them reflect on the current situation we're facing, some of them are rhetorical, some of them mirror the deeds of our daily lives.

It consists of whom we rely on through thick and thin, challenge belief and our understanding of the Divine, the culture of society we're living in, to summarize it's a quality video that touchs every aspect of lives.

The bonds between family, friends and God.

Honestly, I can cry if I watch it again. And the scenery, classic.

Kepercayaan tanpa rasional - buta

Rasional tanpa kepercayaan - kontang

And He found you lost and guided you

[Ad-Dhuhaa, 93: 7]

Perfect friday. And tired.

Wordless Wednesday #6

You may say I'm a dreamer but I'm not the only one - John Lennon

Song: Holes Inside

..cuz sometimes fate and your dream will collide...

Life: Childhood Memories

"I am Officer James Murphy"

Siaran tv terpasang movie Robocop dari tahun 1987. It was Friday night, and we thought of having a drink at a nearby cafe. Just to chill and relax, after having a hectic week of exams and works. Sedang asyik semua mata terpana ke arah tv, sambil sekali sekala mulut menghirup kopi panas, tiba-tiba kami dikejutkan oleh komen spontan Sulaimi.

"Macam mana lah anak kita nanti? Kecik-kecik ada ke tidak main kejar-kejar lagi?"

Komen yang mungkin dilontarkan tatkala movie Robocop yang menjadi kegilaan budak lelaki sezaman dengan kami yang lahir pada awal 90-an sedang ditayangkan. Reminiscing the memories bak kata orang putih. Semua kaku, seolah-olah membayangkan apa yang bakal jadi 10 tahun akan datang. Mungkin tidak membayangi masa depan sendiri, kerja apa nanti tapi lebih kepada persoalan tadi. What will our children be?

Mata memandang tv, tangan masih lagi memegang cawan kopi, tapi fikiran sudah ke lain. It was some other day, I went for a dinner at a restaurant with some friends. There was a family of three sitting in front of us and they were about to leave. The father was holding his daughter, she's probably around the age of 4 or 5. His daughter was crying and shouting,

"Nak handphone, nak handphone !!"

Kami semua geleng kepala.

Tapi kalau ikutkan betul jugak apa yang Sulaimi kata. Budak zaman sekarang tak macam kita-kita dulu. Dulu form 3 or form 4 baru dapat guna handphone. Itu pun handphone Nokia baling anjing, anjing pun berteriak lari. Sekarang budak sekolah rendah pun ada yang pakai iphone, ada laptop sendiri, advanced mengalahkan orang bekerja.

Ada ke lagi budak-budak nak main kejar-kejar (tag), polis sentri (police and thief), ten-ten, galah panjang, semua tu? Aku rasa cerita Badang pun semua orang dah lupa. Cerita-cerita dongeng melayu yang aku selalu baca dekat library sekolah waktu rehat memang dah lupus dah kot. Lupus dek zaman.

Tapi serius, kalau aku ada anak nanti, memang tiap-tiap minggu aku ajak dia tengok cerita P.Ramlee. Kasi kenal sikit orang hidup zaman dulu macam mana. Ketawa berdekah-dekah betapa best nya cerita P.Ramlee yang tengok banyak kali pun tak bosan. Siap boleh hafal lagi skrip.

Cerita-cerita kartun yang korang suka zaman kecil-kecil dulu. Benda-benda yang korang nak tapi tak pernah-pernah dapat macam kaset and walkman. Poster artis bawah alas meja zaman sekolah. Sekarang mana ada lagi kot. PS1, game tape, game boy lama main Super Mario and Pokemon, rasa nya memang dah tak jumpa dah sekarang.

Lagu-lagu lama yang korang puas cari lirik hafal and layan ramai-ramai. Sekarang semua layan lagu Bruno Mars je, pasang lagu lama, ada yang langsung tak pernah dengar. Padahal, lagu lama tu lagi banyak makna and nasihat. Okay, tak semua lah but mostly.Tatkala dulu, semua tergila-gilakan KRU, kini semua tergila-gilakan Justin Bieber. Tapi perempuan dulu tak boleh challenge perempuan Korea sekarang lah. Haha.

Honestly, I miss my childhood. Petang-petang keluar rumah balik waktu maghrib. Technology ruins most of them, but we can't blame modernization either. I just hope the good things never have to fade away. I want my kids to enjoy their childhood, not stuck in front of tv and laptop like I do at the moment of time and place.

Ah, nostalgia.

Jikalau memori kita disimpan di dalam cakera, kan ku mainkan sampai bila-bila - Faris Aiman

sudutkiri: Geology lab test and calculus quiz, sigh, I did bad, though everyone was also in the same boat. Mada mada dane ( still not good enough ) !!

Random and Radical Boredom #3

Couldn't agree more

I still have a test and a quiz on monday, so I'll not be able to update anything except for a simple post like this. "Life" post is in the making because I just got an idea from last night talk with a few friends.

One more thing, internet problem. Lately, I think it was yesterday, the internet happened to be so slow, it couldn't even load facebook properly. Memang stress bila internet lembab semacam.

So, maybe tomorrow or monday night. Have a great weekend !!

Random and Radical Boredom #2

I posted 'sugar' as my facebook status. Sugar as a metaphor for something sweet but we ended up listing the ingredients for cooking.

But it's kinda fun

Serius takde kerja

Materials test in 3 hours. And my stomach is singing for food...

Random and Radical Boredom #1

Segment baru. Saje je buat untuk post something yang betul-betul random dan juga dikala keboringan...

I need one :)

Esok lepas habis test material kena cari bekas kosong satu ni. Pasang cita-cita, dan 'pasang duit' awal-awal.

Vid: Deadlines

You have to admit it, kids are the most creative people in the world

Creativity is not inspired by the pressure of time, but by the freedom, the playfulness and the fun

Turn Back The Pendulum 4

2011 - Currently 19 years old

Current place : Sandford Fleming (SF) Building, University of Toronto

It was Saturday. Midst of March. Sean, Yuhin, Michael and Ikki were my teammates for APS 112 ( Engineering Strategies and Practices ). And we chose that particular day and place for our meeting since we have to submit our final report, FDS ( Final Design Specification ) on Wednesday, the next week.

It was a day long meeting. We started at 9 and finished at 6. And an interesting topic of conversation popped up, I would say it was a test of faith. A test of courage and confidence at one time.

After a long period of typing, brainstorming, discussing and finalizing our report, our stomachs growled like thunder striking through the clouds. Sean, the team leader suggested we had subway for lunch. Subway as in the food, not the transport. We walked down the college st. and rain started to pour.

Ran down to the Subway restaurant beside an Irish pub, and luckily they had an offer on that day. Free bacon, chicken or beef. And none of those are legal for me and Ikki to eat as muslim can't eat anything from pig-based product and meat from animal that has not been slaughtered.

We just had the usual, tuna.

Me: Foot long tuna.

Cashier: We have free meat today. Do you want some chicken, beef or bacon?

Me: No thanks ( with a smile )

Cashier: Why not? It's free. Plus it's bacon.

Me: Laugh. It's okay, I don't really like bacon ( As if I've ever taste it before, sometimes you just have to lie to avoid long and awkward conversation and I thought that would be the best answer. Silly me )

Cashier : Are you sure? It's bacon day today.

Me: Yeah, sure. Thanks for the offer.

We walked back to SF building and had our lunch there. And there it all happened

Yuhin: Do you believe in God? Because I don't.

The rest: .........

Sean: Come to think of it, you guys are muslim aren't you? That's why you didn't take the bacon at the subway right?

Me and Ikki: Yup.

Yuhin: Why don't you guys eat bacon? Bacon is like, the tastiest meat in the world ( I remember how he really emphasized on this that day ). Is it some kind of sacred animal like how the Indians can't eat cow's meat?  Meats are good too. Poor Indians.

Me and Ikki: .............. ( I was nervous and bewildered, and am thinking of an answer that people             like him can understand. Yuhin is an atheist )

Ikki: Well there are reasons for that, but it's kinda complicated. It's religious matter.

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The conversation didn't stop there. Sean is christian and Michael is a follower of buddhism. We had a really long talk about religion. But just enough to make it clear on how I couldn't answer that simple question. It was a really simple test, and I was like speechless, strucked by lightning that I couldn't even think straight and move my lips.

And it was one of the best experience I've ever had. A test of faith can be so simple, can happen at times you couldn't imagine, caught you off guard, and what I am shame about, it is about my religion, my belief.

It came to my mind, the reason for people of the west to look down upon Islam is because of the worshiper themselves. If the believers didn't have the full knowledge of their religion, how could they convey the word of Allah, the message from Prophet Muhammad to other people? How can they convince them that Islam is not a religion of hatred and violence? And how can they approach Islam like this?

It was a meaningful lesson. And I thought that day, I can do better. No, I must do better because it's my religion. It's okay to take it slow, learn bit by bit. InsyaAllah, we can become a better muslim and muslimah. For the sake of Allah, and towards the akhirah.

O you who have believed, if you support Allah, He will support you and plant firmly your feet

[Muhammad, 47: 7]

I want to be a better man....

Wordless Wednesday #5

Diligent requires considerate amount of effort and strength. Sometimes, you just can't tolerate anymore

I did that. A lot. Ayat nak gempak je, mengaku jela malas. Hehe.

Song: Hello Cold World

Happy Eid Adha Everyone !!

Macam tak kena je wish raya dekat post ni.

New song by Paramore...

Song: The Bakery

A remedy by Artic Monkeys...

Life: Welcoming November

Salam and peace be upon you

Like most people, november is a very crucial month. It's one of the busiest months you can have while you're still studying. Schools, colleges, universities, they're all the same.

The month where you don't have enough hands and time to complete all the works thrown at you by your teachers or lecturers with a grinning smile on their faces.

The month where you consume two cans of energy drinks or coffee at all time of the day, just to get enough caffeine so you can stay awake.

The month where most people update their facebook statuses with words of negativity.

The time of the year in which you have to cut your sleeping time to point zero and pull out an all nighter - no sleep at all. Sometimes.

The month where you have the highest level of determination to fight your biggest enemies, laziness and procrastination.

The month where you freak out because december is just around the corner. december = exams

And what you need the most is patience.

Except for those who have believed and done righteous and advised each other to truth and advised each other to patience

[Al-Asr, 103: 3]

Oh November, please be nice...

sudutkiri: For the past four days, I've been sleeping at 4 in the morning and woke up with swollen face and two large eye bags. I've got sleep deprived. Luckily, tomorrow is my last test (calculus) for this week before I can proceed enjoying my eid adha holiday. So, gambatte na !!!

Wordless Wednesday #4

This is so true. Been there, and I swear it wasn't great at all.

sudutkiri: On a break while completing two reports that need to be submitted tomorrow, I feel the urge to post something on this blog. A stress reliever and something to kill my break time. Though it's still tuesday. Alhamdulillah, everything I read last night came out in the geology test this morning.

Life: A Kindergartner's Dream

1998 - Red Ranger

2000 - Paleontologist

2002 - Scientist 

2004 - Astronaut

2007 - Food Technologist 

2009 - Mechanical Engineer

2011 - Civil Engineer

2017 - Dad

Hopefully, I don't have to change my dream again. On the bright side, all of them are related to science and technology. Except the last one. 

All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them - Walt Disney

Hopefully...

Life: Exam Rush

My days are getting busy lately..

The first month of school was a ride in heaven. No homework, no assignment, no exam, only a couple of quizzes. Oh wait, there were a few assignments but fortunately the answers were already given in class.

And last week, we got a few days off. So I just spent my free time like usual. Doing nothing. Played back a few movies I recently watched, and caught my self being obsess with How I Met Your Mother. Season seven
people !!

Life goes on, time runs fast.

Suddenly, a bundle of work piled up for you. Falling out of nowhere. What's frustrating the most, you got them when you are cramped with exams. I'm used to it by the way, but we are students.

When you got tonnes of assignments, the spirit comes first. Then, procrastination takes over. At the eleventh hour, you've got all of your hormones rush from head to toe. Well, that's what being a student is all about. I mean engineering students. Haha. No offense.

So no further update for this week. Maybe just one wordless wednesday post. For those who have exams and quizzes coming up this week, I wish you all good luck and all the best.

Everyone wants a good grade, but nobody wants to study - Bryan Rundi

One done, countless to go :)

Life: The Culture of Us and Them

Salam...

Apa yang kekurangan dalam adat orang Malaysia, as a whole, ialah sifat ukhuwah. When we were kids, we were taught to always be kind to others, as well as expressing gratitude to people who help us.

In this modern day, people only think about themselves. There is no sense of caring, loving, not even respect to other people. To think this is norm, I would say the so-called-civilized western people at least still hold tightly to this essence while we're still blaming them for whatever nonsense reason.

True, there are pro and cons if we take example from them. But look at ourselves. When we are in great trouble, we run here and there asking for help. And when we are free from those calamities we are facing, we just 'poof'. Disappear. And we only utter the word 'thank you' to those we ask for help.

From Ali Hadad ( Indiana University, USA ). Telah di rephrase kan untuk pemahaman yang lebih mendalam.

Diorang walaupun pentingkan diri tapi diorang punya ukhuwah sangat mantap. Eh? Diorang ada ukhuwah? Ya. Diorang ada ukhuwah kemanusiaan yang sangat mantap tapi bukan ukhuwah islamiyyah. Kenapa ana cakap macam tu? Sebab setiap kali diorang lepas lalu pintu, diorang akan check dekat belakang diorang. Kalau ada orang berdekatan, diorang akan tahan pintu tu sehingga orang dekat belakang diorang tu sampai. Bila diorang buat macam tu kat ana, ana rasa segan sangat sebab ana tak penah buat macam tu dekat diorang.

Dengan rasa serba salah dan terhutang budi, ana buat la dekat diorang balik. Tolong tahan pintu sehinggalah mana-mana orang dekat belakang tu sampai. Kebetulan orang tu orang Amerika (of course la kan, takkan orang Melayu pulak kot), dia balas balik dengan cakap “thank you”. Bila ana dengar tu, rasa dihargai. Ana sekali lagi terasa terhutang budi lagi sebab sebelum ni diorang buat kat ana and ana tak cakap thank you pun. Lepas tu, bila sekali lagi diorang tolong tahan pintu, ana cakap terima kasih. Diorang balas balik dengan “no problem”. Ana sekali lagi rasa geram sebab ana tak balas diorang punya terima kasih dulu. Aduhai..

So, Apa ibrahnya? Ibrah tu maksudnya pengajaran. Ada satu pengajaran yang sangat besar yang ana dapat kat sini. Kita selalu dapat dapat nikmat dari Allah. Setiap nafas, kita dapat oxigen. Setiap hari kita dapat bangun dari tidur. Setiap waktu, kita dapat menunaikan solat dan dapat rasa nikmat Iman dan Islam. Setiap detik kita dapat melihat wajah-wajah yang kita sayang, dapat tengok keindahan alam, dapat tengok musim luruh. Pointnya ialah, kita dapat nikmat banyak-banyak ni, berapa kali kita ucap tahmid (Alhamdulillah) kepada Allah? Korang tahu tak yang Allah setiap saat tunggu kita (puji / ucap terima kasih) kat Dia?

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Actually there are more to that. But just saying, practise this in our daily lives to express positive attitude to others. Whether they are actually helping you or just doing their jobs.

Say thanks to the bus driver, say thanks to makcik jual makanan, say thanks to people that hold the door for you, say thanks for your group mates for their hard work and smile back to others that smile to you. Even better, smile to everyone.

Semua itu mungkin dapat menyelamatkan satu jiwa

sudutkiri: Lama gila kepam entri ni. Tak sempat nak ulas panjang-panjang. And from Ali Hadad's story, I've experienced that eventually. From that moment, I live my life by my new principles. I hope Malaysians can be like them too. Someday.

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Wordless Wednesday #3

Ain't that sweet?

sudutkiri: Happy Birthday Khairul Amira !! Sister from another parent. Wish you the best in life, and of course Love Life too :)

Vid: Criminal Penguins

Aku geram bila tengok video ni. Comel gila penguin tu.



Shared from blogserius

Song: When We Stand Together

We must stand together

That's when we all win

Btw, you gotta love Nickelback

Life: Stir and Sugar

Aside from wanting to become an engineer, my love of kitchen and balcony and great feeling of seeing places of wonder, another favourite of mine would be cooking. I am still not good at it but at least I can cook a few dishes.

I got interested in cooking since I was in elementary school. I used to follow my mum to market every sunday morning, and always watched her cook in the kitchen. Maybe that's why I love hanging out, sipping my coffee in the kitchen. And if I were never wanted to be an engineer, culinary was one of my options.

But the thing is, from that very moment, I've always and will always be fond of cooking. If there is nothing to watch on tv, I would turn on the Asian Food Channel. I enjoy watching Hell's Kitchen, Master Chef, my chef idol is Jamie Oliver and I always wanted to try Martha Stewart's desserts.

Actually, it'll be embarrassing to try cooking at home. From people's point of view, maybe that's not a bad thing. My family wouldn't mind at all but I haven't got the courage to cook my family a dinner. That's why I only cook at midnight when all of them are sound asleep.

Then I got my very first chance to try new things, new recipes when I was in Canada. Well, most of them are western cuisine since I can easily get the ingredients. And I already master pasta dishes. Oh yeah, that's one damn achievement.

And dessert, that's one thing that can make me happy. Since I am too lazy to find the recipe, and get my ass off in front of the laptop, I never actually tried making a dessert. Except hotcakes and brownies. Well those two are easy to make. Hence, they don't count.

Now, I'm in a place that doesn't allow cooking. I miss my smile when I cook. Getting you hand reaching for sugar, salts and pepper, stir fried them (of course with other ingredients) in hot cooking pan, it's an awesome feeling.

And my bad if this sounds confusing, a man who knows how to cook, he is damn sexy.

Cook with kindness because it bring joys to the food and the people

sudutkiri: Maaf sebab lately asyik nak tulis post dalam b.i jer. Huhu..

Poetry: La Ville-Lumière

The solo cellist strings a romance filled harmony,

With a guitar on a shoulder sits the man on the street

And let the envious summer moon loom yonder

While Eiffel stands, between where two lovers sit

Scattered stars shimmer like Van Gogh's painting

Midnight coffee sweet talks of company

Hand in hand walks silhouettes

Of unknown strangers dancing like marionettes

Night is young, and long past twelve

La Ville-Lumière enlightens away

For a lonesome one, hopelessly gazing

A yearning heart, seeking amour

Finds poised in solitude and sighs blissfully

Credit to Syafiqah

Life: Morning Alarm Clock

Bonjour...

Have you ever dreamt of waking up to the sound of birds chirping?

Oh yeah, I do. A lot. I got my new alarm clock that wakes me up every morning. Usually, I set my alarm clock at 6.15 for fajr prayer. Tapi biasa lah kan, kadang-kadang tu kita ni tidur mati. Apa-apa pun tak sedar.

But at times like that, I always wake up due to the birds chirping sound. I live on the 3rd floor and outside my room there is a big three grew up to the 4th floor. You can see budding red flowers and a few bird nests. It isn't that much of a beauty, but every morning when you look out of the window, it's quite a beautiful scenery.

Have you ever heard of

Start the day with something sweet and end it with something sweeter

Just so you know, waking up to bird's sound everyday is something sweet. The next thing you gotta to do, find something sweeter to end it.

Ah, cheesecake and coffee would do...

sudutkiri: Salam hari Jumaat :)